Monday, December 19, 2016

Climbing Mayon Volcano

*(previously posted on the late knowingropes.com last 2013)

My friends and I conquered the beauty of Mayon. So here's my promise of telling my story how I managed to climb the perfect cone.


Sophie is our team leader and she managed to arrange a schedule of climb with kuya Bayron Cepria. He is our trail guide and he provided other guides who will help us climb Mayon. From the Faculty Outing at Caramoan, we left our colleagues bound for home when we reached Albay. From there, we traveled to Brgy. Maliliput, and stayed at kuya Bayron's place. It's where we'll sleep for that night. The following morning, we all took our precious bath (a good one to last for two days), prepped up, and listen to kuya Bayron talk about the do's and don'ts during the hike and once we reach camp. This brief orientation mentioned how difficult the hike would be. Since Mayon Volcano has this perfect cone from afar, its trail is really steep, and it gets steeper as you go up.

 
The hike has three parts: Hike to camp 1, hike to camp 2, then hike to reach the summit. We get to rest in every camp. According to kuya Bayron, the helmet, shoes, face mask, shades, and gloves are required especially when you're planning to reach the summit. The helmet is for the occasionally falling stones that might hit you, the shades and face mask for the sulfuric gas that the crater emits, shoes for a protected hike because you might lose a toe if you're wearing slippers, and thick gloves to avoid burns when you need to hold onto hot rocks while climbing.

Then we had our picture-taking before the climb. The team is composed of Sir Dante, Sir Jhed, Ms. Gicel, Ms. Orbit, Sir Airon, Sir Jowie, me, Ms. Sophie, Sir Francis, Ms. Joanrae and Sir Jaymar---a group of Math, Science and English teachers with trail guides. :)


We started our climb from kuya Bayron's place. Since it's really hot outside and there is not much shade, we decided to entertain ourselves while hiking. That's picture-taking. Hehehe. The hike going to camp 1 is all about the striking heat of the sun on a dry and dusty road. There were tracks of trailer trucks that most likely, the only means of transport on that area. Trees too tall for shade, dusty dry land and a dehydrating heat sums up that part of our hike. But after that part, we haven't reached camp 1. It's just half of camp 1's hike. We had to brace ourselves for a trail filled with trees, shrubs, gigantic roots and ferns that scratch you along the way. We had to stop for picture-taking, or for breath-catching I suppose. I can barely smile for pictures at this point. Actually, that part revived me from exhaustion. The fresh air and the shade from the trees helped me recover from the strenuous climb on that dry and dusty trekking.

That stick I'm holding? It became a part of me. It's really difficult to climb without additional support and balance, especially when you need to climb your next step which is by the way as high as your waist. Then we reached a place like 'heaven' after all those difficult steps---camp 1. Yey!
Lunch time!
Power nap!
After the much-needed power nap, we're off to camp 2! We started walking and met a trail so narrow that you have to walk carefully with a literal one step at a time. This is when I fell in love with my walking stick so much. I badly need it to keep my balance. Hiking my way up with narrow steps leaves me nothing but my walking stick, ferns, trees and shrubs along the trail as sources of support and balance. Careful steps or else, you might loose your footing and roll down back to camp 1. Luckily, there would be few spots where you can stand with both feet supporting you. We took these precious places as glimpse of success, where we rest for a couple of minutes, drink a little and take pictures.
After six hours of walking from kuya Bayron's place, we finally reached camp 2!


We set up our tents, prepared food for dinner and took a blissful rest, because at 2 AM, we're heading for the summit. Before we went to bed, we had chats during dinner and we were reminded of the difficulties of climbing the summit. According to our trail guides, there were climbers who really choose not to climb the summit because of these hazards. The trail going up is rock climbing, almost crawling. There would be parts of the trail that are loose rocks, so precaution should be observed. There may be instances that rocks (big or small) roll down and everyone has to be alert and quick just in case. The team has to stick together so that everyone would take care of one another during the climb. Face masks, helmets and shades are required upon reaching the summit because of the hazards that I've already mentioned. In short, I stayed at camp 2. LOL. I just can't risk it. I have a five-year-old waiting at home. Sir Dante, Ms. Gicel and I decided to stay at camp 2, then everyone rested for the next day's climb---an estimate of six hours of climb. We went to our tents because the temperature started to drop.
Despite the extremely hot climb up Mayon Volcano, the temperature drops at night. So you better bring something to warm you up. At 2 AM my friends prepped up for their summit climb. Head lamps on!
They stopped at camp 3 for water break then finally reached the summit. They reached the summit of Mayon Volcano at lunch time. Yey! Not. They didn't bring lunch with them, because the estimate time of climbing and going back to camp 2 is 6-8 hours only. They only had trail food with them. While two of my friends and I feared that we'll get wet because it suddenly rained at camp 2, they had been starving. :( We were so worried that we made sure that any time they arrive, food would be ready. One of my friends went ahead by sliding, and reached camp 2 with torn jogging pants and holes on the palms of his gloves. He literally slid down to camp 2. The guide who went down with him, grabbed the food and water we packed in case somebody comes earlier. He rushed up to meet the ones still making their way down to camp 2. That was 4 PM. The others who climbed the summit reached camp 2 around 8 PM. Thank goodness one of the trail guides brought them food or else, they'll be hiking from 2AM-8PM with only trail food on hand. We were able to use the medicine and first aid kits that I brought for scratches, wounds, and for one of us who caught fever, maybe because of fatigue and the wound he got when a rock hit his knee. If you are wondering, this is not our first climb. But if I'll be comparing Mayon with Pulag (my first climb), Pulag is like a park. Well, that's another story to blog. We slept for another night. That is actually out of the plan. The summit climb had been really cruel, I should say. We were expected to be back at kuya Bayron's place by that night. Anyway, at least everyone's safe. Despite everything, the morning wakes us with a beautiful sight. Beautiful enough to draw smiles on our faces again.

It is then I kissed the sunrise.
In the morning, stories of hunger, desperation to drink any water they find, a spark on everyone's eyes upon finding two candies inside the camera bag, and lots of bloopers. I can't help wondering if they had enough of Mayon. They tell these stories with much fondness and amusement that I might think they want another summit climb. I guess, there is really something with trying times that makes a story worth telling, and with enthusiasm at that. :)

Next problem: With the steep we climbed from camp 1 to camp 2, imagine how we made our way down. We had to sit sometimes, or hold on branches, hang on them before landing on a step. My most loved walking stick still helped me along the way. I loved my stick more I wanted to marry it. When we reached camp 1, I already lost the sole of my right shoe. When we reached kuya Bayron's residence, I lost my two toe nails. My two big toenails. They died. :'( I decided to sleep away my solitude. :P I was in mourning, so I didn't go with them when they went to the river for a bath. I prefer mine in a bathroom. Maybe I had enough of outdoors that time.

We had the best dinner when they got back, and we slept for another night. The next day, we boarded the bus for a 12-hour trip back to Rizal. It was a great experience. We had this climb last April 29, 2013. After several days, May 7, 2013, news came in with a headline: At least 5 climbers dead, 7 hurt as Mayon Volcano spews ash.
I knew we all received a gift of a new beginning. We could have been there when the volcano spewed ash if we planned a little later or stayed a little longer in Bicol before the climb. We could have died. We were spared, we know. All we can do is thank God for the gift of life and pray for the souls of those who didn't make it back to camp 1 alive. In pace requiescat.

Friday, November 4, 2016

Para sa Kapilas ng Aking Langit



Mahalin mo ako gaya ng langit
na sa una mong pagsilip, sayo’y nagpapapikit
maliwanag at nakasisilaw sa iyong balintataw
ngunit langit pa rin sa iyong pananaw

Gaya ng umagang gigising sa iyong tabi
pagmamasdan ang iyong paghinga, ang iyong labi
na kay sarap bakasin ng dulo ng aking daliri
habang iginuguhit ko sa isip ang iyong pagngiti

Mahalin mo ako gaya ng langit
na iyong tinitingala sa kabila ng pagkabigong paulit-ulit
sa mga pangarap kong hindi ko maitawid-tawid
yakap ako sa paghikbi, nariyan ka, walang subalit

Gaya ng kung paano mo 'ko minamasdan 
hanggang sa ang ating mga tingin ay magkahiyaan
sa pagitan ng gabi at umaga, naroon ka, humahanga
hindi mo ikinukubli ang pag-ibig sa iyong mga mata

Mahalin mo ako gaya ng langit
kung saan ang ulap ay sumisipol ng ating mga awit,
sumasayaw at gumuguhit ng ating mga larawan 
na hangad mong pagmasdan habang nakahiga sa damuhan

Gaya ng pagsipol mo ng mga tonong nais mong aking lapatan
ng mga salitang alam mong ikaw lamang ang laman
lumilikha ng musika na kapwa puso’y matatandaan
lumipas man ang panahon, ang mga ulap, sa ating pagitan

Mahalin mo ako gaya ng langit
na kahit sa gabi, sa isipa’y hindi mo maiwaglit 
gaya ng pangarap mong ako’y hagkan 
sa ilalim ng ambon at liwanag ng buwan

Gaya ng paghalik mo sa aking kalungkutan
yayakapin ako at ang aking kaibuturan
saksi at hindi bibitiw anuman ang hantungan
dahil lahat ng kasiyahan, ikaw lang ang pag-aalayan

Mahalin mo ako gaya ng langit
na may amihang yumayakap sa bawat pintig ng pag-ibig
nagpapalipad ng aking isipa't ulirat sa himpapawid
wari’y habagat, daluyong na hinahagip ang aking dibdib

Ngunit ako’y gigising sa aking pananaginip,
dahil ang langit ko, kapilas ka man, hindi mo pa batid.


Wednesday, November 2, 2016

Sa Dulo


Sa lahat ng pagitan na pilit mong tinatawid,
at lahat ng pangarap na pilit mong kinakamit,
heto ang aking kamay, kapit lang hanggang paalam,
dahil hindi nagtatagal ang kahit anong ugnayan.

Sa dulo ng kwento, mag-iisa at mag-iisa ka lamang.

Natatakot ka ba sa bukas na hindi mo makita?
O sa ngayon na makikita sana pero ikinukubli ng iba?
Nabubuhay ka pa ba sa anino ng kahapong ibinaon,
kahit pinili mo na ang dilim nang tuluyan itong ikahon?

Sa dulo ng kwento, parehong may liwanag at anino.

Sa dulo ng kwento, meron lang ikaw o ako. Walang tayo.

Let This Be My Death Poem


When the leaves fall from the tree,
they never say goodbye.
They never knew when they would fall
and so it all come as a surprise.

Gradually they detach
from the world they came to know,
and feel the winds against them,
leading the Waltz quite slow.

Then the breeze leaves leaves empty
of touch, of sense, of illusion.
What's left is the ground, where we lay down
our dreams, our life, our passion.

No matter how hard the branches reach out,
it was never enough to make them stay,
for the leaves fall, not of their choice,
but of reality that they'll soon decay.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Panaginip

Bumibilang na ng araw at gabi,
ang iyong magdamag sa aking tabi.
Nakakabisa ko na ang iyong kwento,
mga alaalang pumupuno sa puso mo.

Palagi ko man pilitin ika'y abutin,
sa panaginip ay lagi lamang nagigising.
Ang nagbubukas ng araw ay 'yong tinig
sa paulit-ulit na awit ng pag-ibig.

Sa wakas, may larawan na!
Ika'y nagkaroon na ng mukha.
Sa aking harapan, marahang nagsalita.
Sandali'y saglit pinatigil ng kaba.

Naging bahagi ako
ng iyong mundo
Sa isang sulyap,
sa isang pag-uusap,
sa isang pagtango,
at isang ngiting kabado.

Dumagdag sa mga piraso
ng kung sino ka nga ba
Kulang man para mabuo,
kulayan natin ng pag-asa.

Muling pagkikita'y hihintayin na lang,
sa pagitan ng unan at kawalan.
Nawa'y mahanap nang tuluyan,
bahaging nawawala sa ating larawan.

Muling Magsisimula


Babalik kung saan ang lahat ay nawawala:
Ang mga ngiti sa likod ng bawat katagang pinadala
Mga damdaming pinalipad ng mga letra at musika
Umawit at nagpatahimik sa pusong nababahala
Ng takot na muling masaktan at umasa
Ang ninais lamang ay ang hahabi ng aking mga salita
Sa ritmong puso mo ang maglalapat at kakanta

Dahil ako ay ang aking tula
Dahil ikaw ang aking musika
Nang ang ating akda ay naging isa.

Babalik na ako kung saan ang lahat ay nawawala:
Kasabay ang pagpatak ng luha sa panatag na lawa
Aagos ang alaala ng saglit na pagkakaunawa
Sa kung sino'ng mahal, mahalaga at tama
Aanurin ng marahan, papalayo, saka muling magsisimula
Dahil ang damdamin ng tula at musika ay hindi nagtutugma.

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

At Sunset

I want to believe that in the horizon,
the sea and sky could hold a kiss,
long enough for the colors to spread,
warm enough to keep everything red.

And so the sea asked, "If I would hold your hand,
will you hold my heart?"
The sky answered, "Take my hand, fly with me,
then we'll fall together down the heart of the sea."

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Kabalintunaan

Tula ng Pag-ibig: Pag-ibig sa Tula 

May pag-ibig sa tula.
Mamahalin ka
matapos mong ibigay
ang iyong buong puso
sa bawat kataga,
sa bawat pyesa,
sa bawat konseptong
niyakap at iniukit sa alaala.

Magmamahal na lamang ako ng tula.

May pag-ibig sa pag-iisa,
matapos mong paglaanan
ng panahon ang kalungkutan,
na bumalot sa iyo nang
ika'y nakikipagbuno
sa mga demonyo
ng nakaraan:
yaong umuungkat
ng ibinaon mo nang sakit,
yaong tumutuklap
sa langib ng mga sugat,
yaong kumukurot
sa pilat na kumikirot
sa bawat yakap.

May pag-ibig sa pag-iisa.
Gaya ng pag-ibig na dulot ng tula.
       
***


Tula ng Pag-asa: Pekeng Alapaap

Hindi na nagungusap ang mga mata
Hindi na saya ang bumabalot sa kanila
Sa bawat tingin mo, hindi na nalulusaw
Hindi na tumitibok ang pusong nauuhaw

Hindi na hinahaplos ng iyong mga labi
ang kasawian ng mga halik na may pagsisisi
ng mga yakap na hindi na umiinit
ng lahat ng ikaw na binabawi kong pilit

Yayakapin ka ng mahigpit, kakapit
sa pag-ibig na dumudulas, kumakalas

Haharap sa salamin, saka muling magsisinungalin
saka muling kakabigin ang tali ng damdaming
'di mabitiw-bitiwan ng alaalang umaalipin

Nabubuhay sa pangarap na muling mananaginip
gaya ng pagpapanggap na ang hangin ay umiihip
sa pekeng alapaap, sa nagkukunwaring langit
nalulunod na sa luhang nagtatanong kung bakit

Hanggang kailan kakapit sa nakaraan?
Ang kwentong 'di matapos sa malamig na paglisan,
Laging bumabalik sa dulo ng sinimulan.

           ***


Tula ng Pananampalataya: Panginoon

Sa pagpatid ng tali sa leeg at kamay,
unti-unti na nating makakalas
ang mga kadena ng bolang bakal sa mga binti.
Matagal na tayong itinali
at pinakakain ng kanilang mga itinatapon.
Taga-konsumo
ng mga bagay na pinagkakakitaan ng imperyo.
Tayo ang merkado
na kanilang binebentahan ng lahat ng produkto:
mga bago,
may depekto,
mga sobra,
mga luma,
at kahit mga damit na ibinasura na;
mga armas na walang bala,
dahil ang bala ay sa kaaway ibinebenta,
nang ang kalakal ay magpatuloy
at hindi mawalan ng pangangailangan.
Negosyo ang giyera.
Ninegosyo ang giyera.
Kasabay ng kanilang tUbo
sa larawan ng babaeng pinuputa.
Patuloy tayong ibinabaon sa
konsumerismo ng mga bagay na galing sa kanila
mula kape hanggang pelikula
kahit ang mga produkto natin
ay kayang mamayagpag sa ibang bansa.
Walang kakumpitensya
kaya naman sa kanila
ang monopolyo.
Tayo
ay mga dagang tumatakbo
sa karerang sila ang bumuo,
at umiikot ang pera ng tao
patUngo sa kanilang mga bulsa,
nabubusog habang tayo'y nagugutom dahil sa
imperyalismo
na bumuo ng imperyong
may mga panginoong maylupa
na patuloy na inaalipin
ang taong sa ati'y nagpapakain,
inaangkin ang atin,
upang sila'y patuloy sa pagkain
ng hindi nila pinagpaguran,
bagkus ay kinamkam lamang.
Pinayakap sa atin ang kaisipang
tayo ay tamad
kaya tayo hindi umuunlad,
upang hindi tayo magtaka
kung bakit sa ating pagpapakahirap
ay hindi tayo makaangat-angat.
Tayo ay hinati-hati
upang patuloy na maghilahan gaya
ng ginagawa ng marami 
na bagkus tumulong
ay patuloy na sinisiraan
ang gobyernong
pinipilit itayo ang dignidad ng isang bansang
matagal nang kolonya at may pekeng kasarinlan.
Nakakatawa na
ang sumisigaw ng 'gutom' 
ay ang mga taong may ipon,
at mga taong kumakayod
ng isang kahig at isang tuka
ay hindi nagrereklamo.
Bakit?
Dahil wala nang ikagugutom pa
ang mga taong nagugutom na
sa matagal nang panahon.

***

Ito ay lahok sa Saranggola Blog Awards 8






Saturday, October 8, 2016

Tuliro

Sa bawat paglapat ng mga palad mo
Sa palad ko
Puso'y tumitigil sa pagtibok,
Napapalunok
Hininga'y napipigilan
Sa ating pagitan
Walang naiintindihan
Sa mga tinuran
Namumutawi ay "ok lang"
O 'di kaya'y napiping tuluyan
Tumango, umiling,
ngumiti na lamang.

Lost


I was lost
at that moment
you were looking at me
with eyes that feel
with silent intensity
listening intently
and I had to catch myself
from falling and failing
to keep my heart still
when everything else vanished
clouding my thoughts
of my throbbing within
and what stays is my reach
towards you, in between.

Notes for the Universe

















Sunday, October 2, 2016

Akap

from Akap by Imago
Pikit-mata 
kong iaalay ang buwan at araw
pati pa sapatos kong suot
Nagtatanong
simple lang naman sana ang buhay
kung ika'y lumayo...

***

Pikit-mata:
Buod ng ating pag-ibig sa iisang salita
Pag-ibig nga ba na binulag ng tadhana?
Tadhana'y naniwala na may iba
sa ating dalawa
na magiging panghabambuhay ang
nagtatamisang salita

Pikit-mata.
Inialay mo ang lahat ng meron ka
Inialay ko ang lahat ng aking magagawa
para sa mga pangarap na tila
maaabot ang langit ngunit...wala

Pikit-mata
na hinawakan ko ang iyong kamay
Nang sinabi mong hindi ako sa puso mo'y may taglay
humahabol sa pag-asang nawalan ka lamang ng kataga
kung paano ipaliliwanag ang kahulugang nawawala

Pikit-mata
kong minahal ang lahat: ang pait, ang sakit, ang pilat
ang pait, ang sakit, ang pilat
nang bawat sugat na sumulat
ng mga kwentong walang pamagat.

Pikit-mata
kong hinarap mag-isa ang katotohanang hindi talaga
maari ang pag-ari sa taong hindi kilala
na nakatago ang kaluluwa mula sa
mga taong nais bumasa, yumakap at tumula

Hanggang sa huli, bulag ako sa kung ano'ng totoo
sa mga ngiting pinagsaluhan
sa iilang pagkakataon ng katuturan
ng damdaming nahulog ngunit walang kahulugan.


Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Tanya Markova on Cam: The Latest Original Payaso Music is Here!

If you haven't read my feature about Tanya Markova and the kind of OPM they make, you can check it out here.

Since I'm enjoying Mister Tililing a whole lot on my "Repeat Playlist," I would like to share the music that keeps me feeling good and sore at the same time. These are really "songs from the broken minded, for the broken hearted." Check out some of the songs Mister Tililing has for you:

Enjoy!





Eskeleton is one of the album fillers while Ang Darling Kong Zombie is the full song







It is so rare that I come to LOVE ALL SONGS and ALL FILLERS in an album. So I suggest that you watch these people in their gigs and grab a copy of Mister Tililing! Like their Facebook Page and get to know the Original Payaso Music live in their bar performances and mall tour! Below is their upcoming event! See you, #TililingNation ! #MasMasayaPagMayTanyaMarkova #MisterTililing


Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Superb Acoustic in WAT UP Mix. Vol 4: Kings in the North


It was an acoustic night to remember as our favorite indie bands performed with their sought-after music with a twist. If you've never heard Kuneho Rock of BennyBunnyBand in acoustic, this gig surely made new things happen. Imagine MilesExperience performing an acoustic set. That is something worth to catch, right? This event was made possible by We are the Underdogs Productions as they held their 4th WAT UP Mix entitled: Kings in the North which took place at Exile on Main St., Katipunan, July 23. Here are some clips of the performers, who are all by the way amazingly wonderful, during the event:





















See you on our next gig! We are the Underdogs Productions can't wait to meet you all!

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Mister Tililing: (Not Just an) Album Review


Oo, naman! Kilala pa rin namin ang Tanya Markova!
Only Tanya Markova can make THE original payaso music! They are our childhood, youth and the insanely brilliant schizsos within us. Their comedy of sarcasm and parodies never fails.


In one of Tanya Markova's gigs at 70's Bistro, I got the chance to grab a copy of their album 
Mister Tililing.





There is a total of 17 tracks composed of funny, weird, disturbing, 
and satisfyingly good songs and antics. They are as follows:
1. Tililing, Tililing 
2. Bermuda Love Triangle
3. Hello, Hello, Hello
4. Eskeleton
5. Ang Darling Kong Zombie
6. B.U.N.G.O. (Mag-asawang)
7. Metal Hospital
8. Pandemonium
9. Nari Tuna
10. High-end
11. Belated Happy Birthday Song
12. Nakatutok
13. No Eating Below the Belt
14. Lagalag
15. Mr. Tililing & Kuya Dark Contract
16. E.O.W. (End of the World)
17. Liwaliwba

The initial track reminds me of the ringing bells of the Pinoy well-loved dirty ice cream that kids and not-so-old-kids get really excited about, which is followed by some sort of intergalactic voicemail that reminds me of the sarcastic, creepy Night Vale. Mister Tililing is creepy and witty!



I spent a good time laughing and humming along with this album. Sobrang nakaka-LSS! It was more than my money's worth. The signature Pinoy sound is still on track, the strikingly out of the ordinary kind of weird lyrics and feeling are definitely there. It is good-old-Tanya Markova music version 2.0. What do you expect from Tanya Markova? I honestly expected so much and this album is way beyond that expectation.

The satiric take on Pinoy ads, love-struck Pinoys, zombie hype, elitism, senseless extravagance, hypocrisy, a good laugh on Pinoy gullibility and all things uniquely Pinoy, plus those newly-acquired Pinoy color. This is not the hugot you hear almost everywhere, but the reality that hits you hard on the face, and laughs at your shock. They got the not-your-everyday love songs that will surely leave you smiling at the satisfying music and witty lyrics. Forgive me if I will not deal with the specifics of this album because it is better to listen to it without any idea what's in store. But I can definitely assure you that this is a must-have for the collection!

By the way, they are working on their next MV with the directing skills of Sir Jiggy Gregorio.
Here is the teaser for the song, Ang Darling Kong Zombie

#ThrowbackTanyaMarkova

What makes Tanya Markova is what we are as Filipinos:

Our love for romanticism shoved down our throats by Disney, which every Pinoy kid grew up with, is undeniable. Everyone, not only girls, read and watched a fairytale or two. We have always dreamed of that happily ever after when we were kids, and sadly, some people didn't grow out of it. Disney stories are our first book, first movie, and a dream to set foot on when finally we can afford to travel. This is the romantics that we are--- our seemingly inherent attitude of seeing the "rainbow after the rain." Our positivism in everything that even if we've lost so much, we still focus on what we have. Thus, we are labeled one of the happiest people. We can't help a good laugh at everything. The romanticism that fills the Filipino culture translates to the very core of our society: in the arts, religion and even in politics. and so we have a circus of a society now.



Our fascination with photos and the emotions we usually have towards our subjects reflects our Pinoy idealism of beautiful. Ever wonder why we all go gaga over beauty pageants? Other countries don't have the same dedication to win crowns at international beauty contests. It is rooted in our eyes for the aesthetics which is seen in our devotion to images that Catholics even dress them up for occasions. We also patronize the grandeur of celebrations which is seen in festivals all over the country. They may not be practical, but that's culture. I hope our love for the aesthetics would extend to our Original Pinoy Music.



We can never deny our endless pursuit of knowing the paranormal world. Remember the stories of exorcism, the spirit of the glass tripping you had with your barkada, the dream of getting a third eye and the ghost stories literally everywhere? I guess this is rooted in the Filipino culture of lower mythology that speaks of the colorful literature and story-telling affinity that Pinoys grew up with and inherited from the firsts of our generation. We are not Pinoy if we do not believe the superstitions, Pinoy monsters, and the spirits that we even honor and remember on one of the most important holidays we have - All Saint's/Souls Day. Hi, Linda Blair, my old friend!



It will always be Pinoy curiosity that is picked when showbiz or the entertainment industry is on the table. Pinoys love TV and the people they frequently see in it. As so the allusion of the biggest stars that we know in this song. This is the fanaticism that we are all very aware of. Now, fanaticism is no longer limited with entertainment since politics started marrying showbiz. The election that relies on popularity vote turned voters into members of fandoms, which I personally think divides the country more. This dedication that we possess towards the people we idolize may be good at some personal points, but when abused (which often happens), is mostly against the common good. Here's a lighter take on that.



Last, but not the least, Pinoys are social media addicts. This is because we value community and relationships more than anything else. With the exodus of Pinoys to work their a** off abroad, there is this dire need for communication to cushion the blow of isolation and homesickness. We love the social media for its capability to keep us connected. Maybe we should soon establish an Idot's Guide in responsible use of it though.



This is my favorite music video. This speaks of Philippines: its poverty, the deepest of our realities behind violence and criminality, the romance we see in the middle of all chaos, the hypocrisy of our perceived social responsibility and the exploitation of the already bereaved society that we have.



Tanya Markova is disturbingly good, a good kind of weirdness, our deep-seated dreams and frustrations, the surreal realities, our youthful imagination, the rich Pinoy culture that we tend to dismiss over foreign musings. Their music is filled with local color which is the foundation of regionalism in literature. From the music to the lyrics, the humor and the wit---their craft will not be fully appreciated without being a Flilipino first. Just as how we differently interpret and remember moments associated with the following words we grew up with:

"sumayaw ng boogie at chacha ng walang musika"
"tumingin sa salamin at kinausap ang sarili"
"nakangangang kumanta sa harap ng bukas na electric fan"
"mapangiti sa jeep ng walang dahilan"
"magsalita mag-isa"
"abakada"
"nanay, tatay, gusto kong tinapay..."
"abrakadabra"

I love Tanya Markova because it is Original Pinoy Music in every sense of those words.
Original. Pinoy. Music.
Proud Pinoy!

Monday, July 18, 2016

WAT UP Mix Vol. 4: Kings in the North

WAT UP Mix Vol. 4: Kings in the North

       Hear ye, hear ye! Kings of the indie music scene will journey to the North to reach out to you! See them live at Exile on Main Street along Katipunan Ave., Loyola Heights Quezon City this July 23. Brace yourself for an eargasmic experience with the nobles and royalties as they charm their way to your hearts. Hours of fun music from night till morning is a blast: 9PM-12AM it is! Catch your favorite songs and enjoy the night with the nobility. You can thank We Are The Underdogs Productions later for your ever after. 

Ladies and gents, presenting the Kings:



Carousel Casualties

BennyBunnyBand



Ian Penn



Miles Bondoc of MilesExperience




Burn Mercado of The Putings



Nota Bene:

Php 200 with 1 free beer
What are you waiting for? Click going



Wednesday, July 13, 2016

You are Poetry




You are my favorite poem
With all the ironies that I love
The mood that swings from here to there
And all my senses that you satisfy
With the tone that speaks perspectives
The style that's yours alone to bear
With internal and end rhymes I love to hear
And unmeasured lines of making me fall
As your mystery lies with your symbols
You are my favorite poem
Just let me fall in love with you
And I'll write your verses
more beautiful
than anyone ever could.


Friday, July 8, 2016

Paalam

Hindi ko alam kung ito na ang huling liham ko sa'yo
Hindi rin sigurado kung bukas ay makakatula pa ako
Hindi mo man malaman ang inaawit ng pusong bigo
Hindi ako matatapos sa piniling pag-ibig sa tulad mo.

Ngunit matatapos ang paghihintay ng kulay sa ating kwento
Tutuldukan na ang huling salita na iginuhit ng alaala ko sa'yo
Dahil ang bawat musikang inialay mo at tayutay na tinula ko
Ay mistulang liham na pinaanod sa alon, nawala, naglaho.

Naiwan na lamang ay mga tilamsik ng alaala at ulan
Sa makulimlim na umaga at hanging sumisilip, dumaraan
Kulimlim na tumataklub sa lahat ng tubig na nag-aabang
Sa paghalik ng liwanag para sa bahagharing mamamaalam

May mga bagay na sapat nang pinapanaginipan na lamang
Dagling iniiwan sa ilalim ng unan, kinukumutan sa higaan
Sa gabi at dilim na lamang muling babalikan at hahalikan
Dahil ang panaginip na lang ang 'di nawawalan ng kailanman.

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Love Somewhere


Love isn't love if we haven't gone somewhere:
A place where two hearts choose to burn
From a spark that ignited warmth and
A possibility of endless emotions

by the sea

below sea level

into the waves

across shores

inside comfy cottages

beneath the covers

between the curtains

against pillows

beside each other

in each other's arms

with a book

between lines of poetry

in between rhythm and melody

over coffee

in the middle of the night

under the stars

with appreciation

alongside understanding

together with motivation

with a little less expectations

with more inspiration

into the deepest of feelings

above all else

towards a future of uncertainties

amidst all odds

throughout our lives

of simple things we call love

And now I'm going back where we found our lost selves first.
Then realized love isn't there.

An Open Letter to You Who Never Knew You Were Enough

Pablo Picasso's Girl Before a Mirror
Dear You,

Just like most people, I know the feeling when people leave. It is not just the cutting of relationship strings that make us feel bad about it, but the rejection that is the aftermath. The questions that bother us why we weren't enough, or why it didn't work. We feel that whatever good in us are left unappreciated and all our faults were brought under the spotlight. That is the rejection we face after separation, but do not let it eat you whole. Yes, we experience rejection all through our life, and we could never deny that the most painful is from the one we love most. We can't change that. People leave and we just become part of their past because that is life. We keep on finding the person who could love us the way we want to be loved. And so people leave when they can't have the love they think they deserve. Don't fret. It's nobody's fault. You just have different standards for love. Her standards may not qualify you, while your standards qualify her. Or vice versa. Or when lucky, you get the same standards met by each other. Of course, people don't usually come perfect with the standards other expect, and so whoever can adjust and live with compromise usually take the relationship to the next level and make it more meaningful to last.

Just remember that:

You are not a toy that has to be assembled.
You are not a doll to be dressed.
You are not a "mecha" to be customized.
You are a unique collectible that is perfect in its original packaging,
that your value goes up when your seal isn't tampered.
Your demand increases as you become the rarest of your kind.
And you are rare, because everyone comes with their unique qualities.
No one is the same as you.
People who fail to see how great you are do not deserve to be with you at your greatest.
People who deserve you preserve the great in you, take care of you until you become the best.

The people who love you would see your best and your flaws, and love you just the same. The imperfections make you who you are, thus making it impossible for them to love another. You will always be perfect to those who love you. If you are not, then you are not loved. Because you are enough, and will always be.

Some people don't understand that you can't be fixed. Instead, your weaknesses should be supported with another's strength to help you stand sturdier than before. People who love you will see your flaws as opportunities to love you more, and they make things better for the two of you.

The person to love is the one who will say, "You are beautiful. Because and in spite of who you are, you are beautiful. All that you could offer, it will do. You are enough and you are mine."

Believe that you deserve that kind of love and it will come.

Yours always,
Me who see that you're just perfect

Monday, July 4, 2016

Hindi Mo Alam Kung Paano

Hindi mo alam kung paano malungkot kung ang lagi mong sinasabi ay "okey lang 'yan."
Huwag mong sabihing naiintindihan mo dahil hindi.
Dahil kahit ako, hindi ko malaman.
Napapagod na akong magpaliwanag sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit.
Hindi ko rin kasi alam.
Napapagod na akong makinig sa mga haka-haka nilang dahilan.
Pagod na rin akong tumango sa lahat ng sinasabi nilang dapat gawing paraan.
Hindi mo naiintindihang hindi ko rin naiintindihan.

Ang alam ko lang
mag-isa ako, sa gitna ng kwartong walang tao
at sa gitna ng mga taong may kanya-kanyang kwarto
Nakikita ko sila gaya ng nakikita ko ang nasa paligid ko
Nakikita nila ako at ang sanlibong mukhang gamit ko
Mga mukhang pinagpapalit-palit ko
sa kunwari'y tapat sa kung ano'ng dapat
Mga ngiting nakapinta para sa bawat pagkikita

Ang alam ko lang
kaya kong magpalipas ng maghapon na walang tumatakbo sa isipan
Na ang kawalan ng nararamdaman ang pilit kong pinaglalabanan
Na ang dilim ng paligid ay tila, kahit ng umaga, hindi maiibsan
Sa dilim magkasiping ang nawawalang damdamin at kaisipan

Hindi mo alam kung bakit ko sinasaktan ang sarili ko
Dahil hindi ko rin maipaliwanag ang pakiramdam na dulot nito
Hindi mo alam dahil hindi ka naniniwalang kaya ko
Ngunit alam mo bang hindi ko rin naman ito ginusto?

Hindi mo alam kung paano malungkot kung ang lahat ng luha mo ay may dahilan
Dahil ang sa aki'y dumadaloy sa kawalan, sa kawalan ng nararamdaman
Hindi malaman ang katuturan ng lahat ng tumatakbo sa isipan
Paikot-ikot, masalimuot, kinukurot and bawat himay ng aking katauhan

Hindi mo alam kung paano malungkot
Kaya wala kang karapatang
Sabihing ito'y wala lang
o "magiging okey rin 'yan"

Hindi mo alam.
Hindi mo alam.

Oda Para Sa 'yo

Sa bawat pagsisid, ikaw ang hanging baon ko
Pinapawalan ng dahan-dahan, iniingatang mawala ng tuluyan
Pumupuno sa aking dibdib, nagpapatibok ng aking puso
Ibinabaon sa muling paglubog, paglisan, matapos sa ibabaw ay balikan

Ikaw ang baon kong buhay sa gitna ng tubig na yumayakap
Salungat man sa mga alon, mahapdi man ang alat ng dagat
Nagpapaanod sa damdaming sa kailaliman hinahanap
Sumisikad pa rin pabalik sa iyong hininga sa kagyat na pag-angat

Ikaw rin ang tubig na niyayakap ng aking kabuuan
Humihigit sa hininga habang pinapatid ang aking uhaw
Kailangan ko lamang lumubog at ako'y sa iyo na nang tuluyan
Patuloy akong lumulutang sa ilalim ng ating pag-uulayaw

Dalangin ko lamang na ito'y magtagal, magpatuloy
Sa kabila ng paglulunoy sa tubig, nang mata'y nakapikit
Pumapadyak sa kawalan, kumakampay, lumalangoy
Hinahawi ang tubig, hinahati ang dagat, sa alon kumakapit

Ngunit lalanguyin ko lamang ang lalim na kaya kong pangatawanan
ang lalim na kaya kong languyin, lisanin, balikan
ang lalim na hindi dudurog sa aking puso at katawan
ang lalim na hindi magpapalubog, lulunod sa akin nang tuluyan

Ikaw ang ulan sa bawat taglamig na dumarating at lumilisan
Sa bawat patak mo, ako'y nililinis, binabasa, pinapaliguan
Gumagapang ang iyong patak mula noo hanggang hangganan
Tinutulay, ginagalugad ang bawat himay ng aking katawan

Mata ko'y pumipikit at nananaginip na ika'y hinahagkan
Sa ilalim ng malakas na tikatik at bugso ng nagngangalit na ulan
Hayaan mong abutin ko ang iyong kamay upang aking maramdaman
Ang init sa gitna ng lamig, ang basa sa gitna ng lupang tigang

Ngunit mababasa lamang ako sa ilalim ng iyong mga patak
Sa panahong pipiliin kong itapon ang aking payong
Sa panahong ang tubig ay aagos sa puso kong bitak-bitak
Sa panahong 'di malulunod, 'di maghahangad ng pag-ahon

Ikaw ang tahanan na kung nasaan ay hindi ko pa nahahanap
Binabagtas ang kalsada, ang bayan, hanap ang haligi at bubungan
Umiikot sa mga kantong nagsasanga at palatandaang 'di mahagilap
Naliligaw sa mga eskinitang malabo at madilim ang lagusan

Ikaw ang marka ng pagpapahinga para sa puso kong pagod na
Magbubukas ng pinto bago pa man ako magsimulang magsalita
Sisilip sa bintana na nakukubli ng mga nagluluksang kurtina
Magpapatuloy sa patuloy na umaasang ako'y kukupkupin mo na

Subalit ang aking pagkakatunton sa'yo ay hindi inaasahan
Hindi ko alam kung makababalik pa kung ako'y lilisan
Kaya naman hangad kong manatili sa piling mo kailanman
At ipinid na ang pinto ng tahanang aangkinin ko nang lubusan

Ikaw ang lutong-bahay na palagi kong inaabangan
Nagpapabango sa kusina, nagpapasabik sa bawat hapunan
Nanunuot sa ilong ang amoy ng ginisa, ng sinangag, ng bawang
Kinukurot ng asim at tamis ang sikmurang walang laman

Ikaw ang lutong-bahay na madalang kong matikman
Bihirang makasama sa tuwing manananghalian
Hinahanap-hanap ang lasang lubusan nang kinasanayan
Dahil sa sangkap mo, pagmamahal yata, 'di ko alam

Ikaw ang tsinelas matapos ang maghapong pagod sa paglakad
Simple, maginhawa, mapagmahal sa mga pagal kong mga paa
Gaano man kamahal ang mga sapatos, saan man ako mapadpad
Ang tangi kong pahinga, sa iisang pares lamang makukuha

Pinapasan mo man madalas ang pagod ko sa lahat ng dinaanan
Hindi ka bumibitiw, di napipigtas, di ako binibigo
Kailangan mo mang yakapin ang lahat ng alikabok na tangan
Walang alinlangan, ako'y hinahagkan, marahan at masuyo

Ikaw ang unan sa pagitan ng lahat ng mga panaginip
Mga pangarap at hinahangad sa paghimbing at sa pagbangon
Nasa iyo na ang mga takot at pag-asang nakapinid
Pati kakaibang pangarap sa pagtulog na sa iyo'y nakabaon

Ikaw ang malambot na dantayan sa lamig ng gabi
ang aking niyayakap upang sa panaginip ay kapiling
ang kumakanlong sa aking mga pisngi at mga labi
sa init ng silid, sa gitna ng nag-aagawang liwanag at dilim

Ikaw ay libro na nagtatago ng lahat ng aking pag-ibig at pagkabuyo
Nasa pahina mo lamang ang aking mga kwento ng pagsuyo
Maging ang mga basang pahina, naninilaw at nilukot ng pagkabigo
Ikaw ang bawat kabanata, pahina, salita at tula ng aking puso

Masuyo kong hinahaplos ang bawat papel ng ating kwento
Itinuturo ng daliri ang mapagpalaya at masidhing salita para sa'yo
Inililipat ang mga pahinang saksi sa bawat paghanga, maging ng paglayo
At muling pagbalik sa nag-iisang balangkas, kasukdulang tanging iyo

Ikaw ang musika na paulit-ulit kong dinadama
ang bawat ritmo, bawat hagod, bawat salita
ang mga letra at nota na magkasiping sa paglaya
ng mga damdaming humuhulagpos, kumakawala

Ikaw ang tula na nabubuo ng pag-ibig at musika
Nagtatampisaw sa laro ng salita, ritmo, at tugma
Nagpapaabot ng mga damdaming nakahain, nakatala
Maging pag-ayaw sa pagsayaw sa saliw ng ibang musika

Ikaw lahat ng 'yan at marami pang ibang bagay na magaganda.
Dahil, mahal ko, ikaw lang naman talaga.
Wala nang iba.
Wala nang iba.

Friday, July 1, 2016

5-10

(based on BennyBunnyBand's song, 5-10)

Under the summer sky and all things fun
your smile is as vibrant as the sun
and your laughter sinks through my heart
with every chuckle, with every sound an art
music that rings the morning good mood swings
and rhythm that beats the repeat of feelings

Under the promises of never saying goodbye
I hold your hand, warmly kiss them every night
And every time I do that, you close your eyes
It's the most beautiful to stare at under the moonlight

Under the rain, I am drowning with you
Near the verge of emotions that I swim through
Every day, every moment, every second of you
Is a shower and surge of dreams coming true

Under the sheets, entangled feet, lips are one
Under the warmth offered by each other's arms
Cozier than a cup of coffee under the midnight sun
And you, my blanket, all wrapped around me till dawn

Under the stars we trace the map of our fate
Wishing in every point comes the heaven's gate
Or at least a door that would open to see your face
Of promises of heavens, among millions of stars lace

It was perfect when we began, and so I thought it wouldn't end,
but it was just a dream, for I am a five and you are a ten.

I have dragged you under a lot of times
Yet still, I can't reach you, and call you mine
Why can't the universe be just kind
And extend my hand to you, so fine
Your perfection sealed my heart's whines
But I am never the one who get beyond the lines

I'm sorry, allow me
That I am for you
Only for you
But you don't deserve me.

Sometimes kisses fly and find their way to you
but most of the time, they miss you as much as I do
Soon, my love, I'll be seeing you.
With love, and kisses, and all of me, to You.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Sa Ating Pagitan


(halaw sa I'm Coming ng BennyBunnyBand)

Ilang oras na lamang
muli ka na namang mamamaalam
habang gising ang aking mundo,
panaginip mo'y ibabaon sa mga unan
bukas paggising mo mahal,
hahagkan ko ang hangin
na sana sa iyo'y makarating
dahil ako naman ang mananaginip
na muli kang makapiling

Nasanay na tayo sa mga larawan
ng mga bagay na hindi nahahawakan
hindi man pigilan, walang mahahagkan
walang nararamdaman,
maliban sa pag-ibig na namamagitan

Mahal ko, patawad
sa tuwing nais kong hagkan ang iyong palad
o ilapat ang aking kamay
mga daliri ko'y tumulay
sa mga linyang sa ati'y nag-uugnay

Patawad mahal ko sa mga panahon
na nais kitang yakapin, ikahon
sa tuwing ang puso ko'y nababaon,
nauubusan na ng pagkakataon
huminga at huminahon
naiiyak, nanghihina
sa pangungulila
sanlibong luha na bumasa
sa mga kobre kamang
niyayakap mag-isa

Nais ko muling kumapit
sa iyong mga balikat
ang aking mukha
sa iyo'y marahang ilapat
damhin ang iyong paghinga
ang init ng ating pagkakadikit

Patawad mahal ko sa aking panaginip
na muli kang marinig sa tainga'y malapit
Gigising sa iyong tabi
Babasahin ang ngiti
ng iyong labi
halik sa mata'y dadampi

Isayaw mo 'kong muli mahal ko
sa awiting alam na alam natin ang ritmo
Sa bawat galaw, bawat hakbang, kapit ko
Susunod ang katawan sa galaw mo
Isayaw mo ako muli mahal ko
Sa ilalim ng buwan, at sa lahat ng pagitan
ng mga haplos na 'di mamamaalam
kailanman

Ilang oras na lamang
muli na akong mamamaalam
habang gising ang iyong mundo,
panaginip ko'y ibabaon sa mga unan
bukas paggising ko mahal,
hagkan mo ang hangin
na sana sa aki'y makarating
dahil ikaw naman ang mananaginip
na muli akong makapiling.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Good Morning, Pam!

Jim and Pam of The Office
(roughly based on BennyBunnyBand's Pam ToGetHer)

My morning starts when your day begins
With all the dreams that midnight brought within
A breaking day is still morning though breaking
Singing the day with a heart beating your rhythm

It may be just another day in the office
But will never be just a day with you
For the sun beams through its varying shades
Thru the panes and the pain when I see you

I'm on my back, the ceiling draws your face
As your face draws out my heart every time
And my dreams tracing every detail
of your elegant features and delicate lines

The revolving door opens my work day
As I work in circles thru your heart's way
An empty hallway greets my silent steps
as my thoughts of you walk in and out my head

Stepping inside the elevator, a box that holds the door
that sums up my world and its not-so-welcomed visitors
As the daily routine, my tummy gets upset as we go up
My brows sweat hard and my heart beats me up

The door opens and I'm never ready
to stretch the awkward smile for you to see
A hesitant high five that never meets your palm
you, perfectly seated at the lobby, lovely and calm

"Good morning, Pam!" I said bravely.
And those are the only words I could utter
The day would pass like a night so silent
Three words aren't enough; what else would matter?

If day dreaming is an offense, I've lost my job long ago
And if staring is a crime, I could've been jailed twice or so
I guess to be your buddy is a choice for me, for us
Among all the eyes on you, mine would surely last

It would have been fair to fight for, even over you
Had not been for Roy who always got your back
Until I figured I got one hit in a million to be with you
Nothing will change anything, I'm on track.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Gusto Kong Magmahal

The ultimate question: What is Love?
Gusto kong magmahal pero hindi ko alam kung paano
Parehas ba ito ng mga binabasa kong kwento?
May prinsesa at prinsipe bang kahit hindi ko kaanyo?
May hantungang hindi alam kung saan patungo?

Gusto kong magmahal pero hindi ko alam kung sino
Nararapat bang ang lalaki ay gwapo at matipuno?
Nararapat bang ang babae ay balingkinitan at pino?
May habang-buhay ba kapag ang larawan ay perpekto?

Pero gusto kong magmura dahil akala ko prinsipe ka
Nang tinanong mo 'ko kung maari mo 'kong gawing reyna
Ako naman 'tong si tanga, naniwala, nagtiwala
Nahulog, nadurog, nakuha ng maling akala.

Pero gusto kong magmura dahil sa 'kin mas maganda ka pa
Kaya kahit kailan, sarili mo lamang ang parati mong nakikita
Dahil ang sabi mo, ang babaeng para sayo ay dapat pino
Balingkinitan at tropeyo na kaiingitan ng barkada mo. Oo, hindi ako.

Pero gusto kong magmahal para malaman kung paano
Tataas nga ba ang aking isang paa kapag hinalikan mo ako?
May mga paru-paro nga bang sa sikmura ko'y magkakagulo?
Kapag hawak mo ang aking kamay, bibilis ba ang pintig ng puso?

Kaya gusto kong magmahal kahit hindi ko alam kung sino
Ang magpapabilis ng tibok ng palaging ligalig kong puso
'Yung magpapa-blush sa 'kin, aakyat sa mukha ko ang dugo
'Yung mapapansin at tutuksuhin ng lahat na nahulog na sa'yo

Pero gusto kong magmura dahil hindi tumaas ang aking paa
Bagkus puno ng kalyo sa pagtayo habang ilang oras na hinihintay ka
Dahil wala ni isang paru-parong dumapo sa pag-alis at pagbalik mo sa aking kama
At kapag hinatak mo ang aking kamay, alam ko galit ka na

At gusto ko talagang magmura dahil kung paano matakot sa tao, alam ko na
Yung tipong kabisado ko ang pagbukas ng seradura kapag nariyan ka na
At hindi ako pwedeng magkamali kung ayaw ko ng dugo sa aking mukha
Dahil sawa na akong pagtawanan ng mga tao sa aking mga pasa.

Pero gusto ko pa rin magmahal kahit di ko na alam kung sino
Ang magmamahal sa babaeng naging tanga, naging basura na para sa'yo
Kaya nagtiis ako, akala ko, pagmamahal kapag hinintay ang pagbabago
Na darating ang araw, ang mga sugat mo, mapaghihilom ng mga sugat ko

Kaya gusto ko pa rin magmahal kahit hindi ko alam kung paano
Ibinigay ko ang lahat ng makakapagsaya sa'yo
Naging sunud-sunuran, naging personal assistant, naging yaya mo.
At kahit anong gusto mo, ayaw ko man, ginawa ko.

Kaya naman gusto ko nang magmura sa kung paano mo ko inabuso
Na pinagsabay mo kaming dalawang babae mo
Dahil ang sabi mo, may naibibigay s'yang higit sa kaya ko.
Pero ayaw mo kong mawala, dahil ako pa rin ang mahal mo.

Kaya gusto ko talagang magmura dahil dinuraan mo na ko
Pero ang gusto mo, hindi ako aalis at humalik ako sa talampakan mo
Ano sya? Ano ako? Ganun din kaya sa kanya'y sinabi mo?
Ganun nga ba talaga kapag mahal mo ang tao? Kung di kaya ng isa, dalawahin mo?

Kaya gusto kong magmahal dahil hindi ko alam kung paano
Dapat ba sa mabait at relihiyosong tao?
Dapat ba sa maingat sa kilos at hindi nasasangkot sa gulo?
Dapat ba yung disente, naka-formal at maganda ang trabaho?

Gusto ko nang magmahal ng tama kahit di ko alam kung sino
Dapat ba yung marami nang napatunayan sa mundo?
'Yung mala-libro ang resume na hindi kailangan para magkatrabaho?
'Yung kaya akong regaluhan ng mga bagay na bibilhin ang pagkatao ko?

Kaya gusto kong magmura dahil sabi nila tama ka, pero
hindi ko kailanman naramdaman na mahal mo ako
Laman lagi ng isip mo ang trabahong kikita para sa pangarap mo
Hindi ko lang alam kung kasama ako sa marami mong mga plano

Kaya gusto ko rin talagang magmura dahil laging tama ang lahat, maliban ako
Dahil ang mga gusto ko, hindi dapat, hindi pwede, hindi disente gaya mo
Dahil hindi mo matanggap ang lahat ng pinagdaanan, pinagkamalian ko
Ang gusto mo kasi, yung hindi nagkamali, yung tamang tao kagaya mo.

Kaya gusto kong magmahal para malaman kung paano
Pero ayaw ko nang sumugal, masyado nang durog ang mapaghanap kong puso
Hindi ko pa rin alam ang tama sa dami ng pagkakamali ko
Ang gusto ko lang naman: romansa, responsibilidad at respeto
Kung kaya ko naman 'yan ibalik sa'yo, mahirap pa ba ang hinahanap ko?

Gusto kong magmahal, pero
 ********* lang talaga! Pagod na ko.